Preferences for the opposite gender confuses me at the moment. Previously, I was attracted to East Asian raaces like Japanese and South Korean males. However, since I have been watching numerous English movies for a while. Somehow, I may be limiting myself to Asians. Therefore, I should widen it to the Caucasian race which is a possibility since I am planning to migrate to greener Pasteur.
It is started when I stumbled on the movie Painted veil on a paid cable where Edward Norton and Naomi Watts are the main actors in that movie. Surprisingly, I admired the character of Walter Fane who was played by Edward Norton: a British gentleman, shy and witty infectious disease specialist who is in love with Kitty, a spoiled middle-class British woman who accepted Walter’s proposal out of her will to get as far as possible from her family. Under circumstances, she cannot reciprocate her husband’s love since she found him boring. Unfortunately, she was caught having an affair with Charlie Townsend, a man who is a rich and very powerful man which Kitty finds attractive. As a result, Dr. Fane immediately volunteers himself to relocate to the middle of China where the core of the epidemic of Cholera killed thousands of Chinese citizens by the disease. Kitty & Walter knew that relocating to that place will kill both of them, but Dr. Fane still insists to move there and risk it all. Afterward, Kitty realized that his husband was doing the noble thing, and she saw his husband in a different light with all his charity, and empathy for the people of that town. She developed feelings for him. Thus, love was shared by the couple. Sadly, Dr. Fane died with Cholera, and Kitty returned to London where she took care of their 5-year-old son who may or may not be Walter’s son. It was surprising to me that I suddenly blushed when the actor Edward Norton acted while proposing to Naomi Watts’s character, Kitty. Am I know get attracted to the Caucasian race? Which I swear would not happen. I know they are merely actors, but I find him handsome. Are these preparation that someday I would marry a Caucasian gentleman? ? These are questions that are not ready to be answered, but I am glad I notice them.
In the real world setting, Recently, I was coordinating with an Australian colleague usually I do not get attracted to their race, but this particular Aussie is an exemption. Every Friday, we have this so-called drinks and company debrief where we say our wins and whoops to the entire colleagues. On this special Friday, Jason, the particular Aussie revealed that he has a wife. I was disappointed when I heard this. Therefore, I was kind of have a thing for this person which I find surprisingly amazed since I never liked their kind but there it is. Now that I am aware of this situation, I may know how to approach it next time. Furthermore, since I am matured now, and I am very sensitive with marriage questions which I find annoying, and lonesome when I know the people that I met were all married. Well, I think I was disappointed since I am expecting that people would be the same as me which I felt secluded that I cannot relate to them. From now on, I should keep it to myself, and assume that people the same age as me are happily married, so I will not fantasies anymore. Having this weakness creates a way for evil thoughts to come to me, and people taking advantage of me since I am single. This will not bother me anymore and focus on the important things, and live a happy life on my own.
In essence, this change in preferences of a potential mate is a fresh start for me. I never thought that it would come to me in my late thirties. It started with an attraction to actors now a particular person. This is the start of experiencing something strange to me. It would be handy when I migrate to a foreign land where the Caucasian race owns the city, maybe in the coming years or so, but I should focus more on settling in rather than fooling around with locals.
Preferences for the opposite gender confuses me at the moment. Previously, I
was attracted
to East Asian
raaces
like Japanese and South Korean males.
However
, since I have been watching numerous English movies for a while. Somehow, I may be limiting myself to Asians.
Therefore
, I should widen it to the Caucasian
race
which is a possibility since I am planning to migrate to greener Pasteur.
It is
started
when I stumbled on the movie Painted veil on a paid cable where Edward Norton and Naomi Watts are the main
actors
in that movie.
Surprisingly
, I admired the character of Walter
Fane
who
was played
by Edward Norton: a British gentleman, shy and witty infectious disease specialist
who
is in
love
with
Kitty
, a spoiled middle-
class
British woman
who
accepted
Walter’s proposal out of her will to
get
as far as possible from her family. Under circumstances, she cannot reciprocate her husband’s
love
since she found him boring. Unfortunately, she
was caught
having an affair with Charlie Townsend, a
man
who
is a rich and
very
powerful
man
which
Kitty
finds
attractive.
As a result
, Dr.
Fane
immediately volunteers himself to relocate to the middle of China where the core of the epidemic of Cholera killed thousands of Chinese citizens by the disease.
Kitty
& Walter knew that relocating to that place will kill both of them,
but
Dr.
Fane
still
insists to
move
there and
risk
it all. Afterward,
Kitty
realized that his husband was doing the noble thing, and she
saw
his husband in a
different
light with all his charity, and empathy for the
people
of that town. She developed feelings for him.
Thus
,
love
was shared
by the couple.
Sadly
, Dr.
Fane
died
with Cholera, and
Kitty
returned to London where she took care of their 5-year-
old
son
who
may or may not be Walter’s son. It was surprising to me that I
suddenly
blushed when the
actor
Edward Norton acted while proposing to Naomi Watts’s character,
Kitty
. Am I
know
get
attracted to the Caucasian
race
?
Which
I swear would not happen. I
know
they are
merely
actors
,
but
I
find
him handsome. Are
these preparation
that someday I would marry a Caucasian gentleman? ? These are questions that are not ready to
be answered
,
but
I am glad I notice them.
In the real world setting, Recently, I was coordinating with an Australian colleague
usually
I do not
get
attracted to their
race
,
but
this particular Aussie is an exemption. Every Friday, we have this
so
-called drinks and
company
debrief where we say our wins and whoops to the entire colleagues. On this special Friday, Jason, the particular Aussie revealed that he has a wife. I
was disappointed
when I heard this.
Therefore
, I was kind of have a thing for this person which I
find
surprisingly
amazed since I never liked their kind
but
there it is.
Now
that I am aware of this situation, I may
know
how to approach it
next
time.
Furthermore
, since I
am matured
now
, and I am
very
sensitive with marriage questions which I
find
annoying, and lonesome when I
know
the
people
that I met were all married. Well, I
think
I
was disappointed
since I am expecting that
people
would be the same as me which I felt secluded that I cannot relate to them. From
now
on, I should
keep
it to myself, and assume that
people
the same age as me are
happily
married,
so
I will not
fantasies
anymore. Having this weakness creates a way for evil thoughts to
come
to me, and
people
taking advantage of me since I am single. This will not bother me anymore and focus on the
important
things, and
live
a happy life on my
own
.
In essence, this
change
in preferences of a potential mate is a fresh
start
for me. I never
thought
that it would
come
to me in my late thirties. It
started
with an attraction to
actors
now
a particular person. This is the
start
of experiencing something strange to me. It would be handy when I migrate to a foreign land where the Caucasian
race
owns
the city, maybe in the coming years or
so
,
but
I should focus more on settling in
rather
than fooling around with locals.