These emotions are rushing in me today. Some are anger and hatred towards people who wanted to dismiss me and I must find a way to recover from this misery and to escape to freedom. In this writing, I can understand the root of these emotions and ways to overcome them.
I am disheartened to realize that there is nothing I can do to improve my situation. Thus, I am still stuck and no matter how hard I move forward, I find myself reverting to zero. For instance, I tried to meet people on Tinder. Unfortunately, I got scammed, and left me with disappointment. I decided to deactivate my account and resort to the primitive way of meeting people. Sadly, it is Covid age and I must adhere to health protocol to prevent the spread of the virus. Consequently, meeting people is not ideal at the moment. I do not understand why I needed to talk to someone – is it because It is more than a year since the lockdown started and it wanted a company of a people. The longing to meet fresh faces and the warmth of another people’s personality? At this moment, there is nothing I can do to improve my life. I got a limited of people with whom I can keep in touch and I decline to chat with these people who reject me and I am sure that it is reciprocated. I created this abandonment and lack of confidence to keep in touch since the trust is damage. In short, I isolated myself to the people who I thought I can depend on, but in reality will abandon me till the end.
This is my process to recovery, and I must find a way to hasten it as soon as possible. It is merely more than a year now and it is time to do so. For instance, I focus on my work and improving my English proficiency for me to pass my IELETS examination in May. On the other hand, there is this urge to ignore this hatred and welcome friendship towards the people who abandoned me. Maybe this is my guardian angel speaking that I must forget all these negativities inside and release the grief in my heart. To be honest, I will always entertain them since they became part of my life, but with limited responses. It is awkward to interact with people whom one thought can trust but decided not to. At least I know that I can no longer continue to waste my time with them. Let merely forget them and continue to live life without them.
The bottom line, people will eventually come and go in life – that is a fact in life. It merely for lone that we attached ourselves with them. It is pleasant to have that opportunity to encounter them as part of our lifetime. They gave us lessons that we needed in our next quest in life. It is not a waste after all but I am glad that they became part of my life. I just need to accept that they will no longer play a role in my life and that is part of it. It is time to explore a fresh start with everything and be appreciative of things that happened whether pleasant or not. Beginnings of new opportunities will come and merely prepare to accept anything as long as we pray to God for his will and guidance.
These emotions are rushing in me
today
.
Some
are anger and hatred towards
people
who
wanted to dismiss me and I
must
find a way to recover from this misery and to escape to freedom. In this writing, I can understand the root of these emotions and ways to overcome them.
I
am disheartened
to realize that there is nothing I can do to
improve
my situation.
Thus
, I am
still
stuck and no matter how
hard
I
move
forward, I find myself reverting to zero.
For instance
, I tried to
meet
people
on Tinder. Unfortunately, I
got
scammed, and
left
me with disappointment. I decided to deactivate my account and resort to the primitive way of meeting
people
.
Sadly
, it is
Covid
age and I
must
adhere to health protocol to
prevent
the spread of the virus.
Consequently
, meeting
people
is not ideal at the moment. I do not understand why I needed to talk to someone
–
is it
because
It is more than a year since the lockdown
started
and it wanted a
company
of a
people
. The longing to
meet
fresh faces and the warmth of another
people’s
personality? At this moment, there is nothing I can do to
improve
my
life
. I
got
a limited of
people
with whom I can
keep
in touch and I decline to chat with these
people
who
reject
me and
I am sure that it
is reciprocated
. I created this abandonment and lack of confidence to
keep
in touch since the trust is damage. In short, I isolated myself to the
people
who
I
thought
I can depend on,
but
in reality will abandon me till the
end
.
This is my process to recovery, and I
must
find a way to hasten it as
soon
as possible. It is
merely
more than a year
now
and it is time to do
so
.
For instance
, I focus on my work and improving my English proficiency for me to pass my
IELETS
examination in May.
On the other hand
, there is this urge to
ignore
this hatred and welcome friendship towards the
people
who
abandoned me. Maybe this is my guardian angel speaking that I
must
forget all these negativities inside and release the grief in my heart. To be honest, I will always entertain them since they became
part
of my
life
,
but
with limited responses. It is awkward to interact with
people
whom one
thought
can trust
but
decided not to. At least I know that I can no longer continue to waste my time with them.
Let
merely
forget them and continue to
live
life
without them.
The bottom line,
people
will
eventually
come
and go in
life
–
that is
a fact in
life
. It
merely
for lone that we attached ourselves with them. It is pleasant to have that opportunity to encounter them as
part
of our lifetime. They gave us lessons that we needed in our
next
quest in
life
. It is not a waste
after all
but
I am glad that they became
part
of my
life
. I
just
need to accept that they will no longer play a role in my
life
and
that is
part
of it. It is time to explore a fresh
start
with everything and be appreciative of things that happened whether pleasant or not. Beginnings of new opportunities will
come
and
merely
prepare to accept anything as long as we pray to God for his will and guidance.