I don't know from where I should start to write. There are so many problems, challenges that I'm facing right now. I belong from joint family where expectations and obligations are surrounded around. A boy from middle class family with plenty of dreams. . . Hoping for that good day to come where I can proudly say " I fulfilled your dreams and promises my mom"
It's so hard to say that I lost my Mommy when I was 16 yrs old. And now it has been a more that 2 years, I'm struggling with my soul. My grandmother always taught me to walk in d right way, to fulfil my dreams, do whatever I love to, do what makes me happy. There were no any restrictions for anything that I wanted to do. My parents worked hard, cared, loved and given me an unforgettable memory for my entire life. But suddenly it has gone far away from me. I lived with my elder sisters for 1 year after that incident happened. But I left from there and living alone now. They're trying to support me, but they can't because they're blackmailed (some private things) by my step grandmother so they hesitate to support me and I agree with that if I'm in that place I did the same as they're doing now. My dad got married after some months of my parent's funeral. I never thought my dad will became so cruel. He's totally changed. Their behaviours rudeness really did feel I should leave this world sometimes. I don't have money even to complete my basic
Needs. I sacrifice everything for my dad to improve an economic condition of my family. Now they've everything but not for me. They used to deny my happiness, don't even receive my calls. They're living in their own world. I don't have the cash to pay my fees, to buy some foods, clothes and don't have pocket money do I dropped my college.
Despite that I fall in love with someone once, but after some period of time she left me because I dint have enough wealth to fulfil her desire. But I really loved her I still love her and I'll be loving her till my last breathe. That was one of d most difficult time for me to recover my life but I cover myself, I had already gone through the hardest time, so I thought I'm living to achieve my mom's goal so I can live without her. In order to win her heart, I lost my own. I'm being the worst and hardest person by everyone, my family, society, relatives, friends, relationship they're blaming me without making any mistakes without hearing my unheard voices. . . . It's so complicated to live alone and hiding problems within your inside. Sudden changes from then to now I'm facing d real challenges of my life. And also there's another a big problem for me, I've got a disease called rheumatic heart disease. . . Its developing fear of losing my life, makes me weaker day by day. It's hard to find a job and to do properly, but I'm still working as a messenger. . . It leads to worsening my health condition. I want to prove myself, but god dint even give me a chance to prove myself my expectations pulling me away. . . . No support no relatives no family, friends, money to buy medication no foods to eat sometimes, but still hoping for better days to come. I'm learning to be happy without depending on anyone. I don't know where life takes me slowly but surely I'll make my way back to myself soon and I believe that'll be the biggest karma myself. . . I'm sharing my problems experience challenges with you guys because it makes me feel better and relief. I want to apologize for any mistakes I've done above along with this text because Idk the way to write a confession. . . So sorry if I've written anything wrong. . .
#Tqforreading #godbless #hopetocuremydisease #wanttofullfillmydreams #workhard #livelongandstaypositive #achieveyourgoal❤
I
don't
know from where I should
start
to write. There are
so
many
problems
, challenges that I'm facing right
now
. I belong from joint
family
where expectations and obligations
are surrounded
around. A boy from middle
class
family
with
plenty
of dreams.
.
.
Hoping for that
good
day to
come
where I can
proudly
say
"
I fulfilled your dreams and promises my mom
"
It's
so
hard
to say that I lost my
Mommy
when I was 16 yrs
old
. And
now
it has been a more that 2 years, I'm struggling with my soul. My grandmother always taught me to walk in d right way, to fulfil my dreams, do whatever I
love
to, do what
makes
me happy. There were
no
any restrictions for anything that I wanted to do. My parents worked
hard
, cared,
loved
and
given
me an unforgettable memory for my entire
life
.
But
suddenly
it has gone far away from me. I
lived
with my elder sisters for 1 year after that incident happened.
But
I
left
from there and living alone
now
.
They're
trying to support me,
but
they can't
because
they're
blackmailed (
some
private things) by my step grandmother
so
they hesitate to support me and I
agree
with that if I'm in that place I did the same as
they're
doing
now
. My dad
got
married after
some
months of my parent's funeral. I never
thought
my dad will
became
so
cruel. He's
totally
changed
. Their
behaviours
rudeness
really
did feel I should
leave
this world
sometimes
. I
don't
have money even to complete my basic
Needs. I sacrifice everything for my dad to
improve
an economic condition of my
family
.
Now
they've everything
but
not for me. They
used
to deny my happiness,
don't
even receive my calls.
They're
living in their
own
world. I
don't
have the cash to pay my fees, to
buy
some
foods, clothes and
don't
have pocket money do I dropped my college.
Despite that I fall in
love
with someone once,
but
after
some
period of time she
left
me
because
I
dint
have
enough
wealth to fulfil her desire.
But
I
really
loved
her I
still
love
her and I'll
be loving
her till my last breathe. That was one of d most difficult time for me to recover my
life
but
I cover myself, I had already gone through the hardest time,
so
I
thought
I'm living to achieve my mom's goal
so
I can
live
without her. In order to win her heart, I lost my
own
. I'm being the worst and hardest person by everyone, my
family
, society, relatives, friends, relationship
they're
blaming me without making any mistakes without hearing my unheard voices.
.
.
.
It's
so
complicated to
live
alone and hiding
problems
within your inside. Sudden
changes
from then to
now
I'm facing d real challenges of my
life
. And
also
there's another a
big
problem
for me, I've
got
a disease called rheumatic heart disease.
.
.
Its developing fear of losing my
life
,
makes
me weaker day by day. It's
hard
to find a job and to do
properly
,
but
I'm
still
working as a messenger.
.
.
It leads to worsening my health condition. I want to prove myself,
but
god dint even give me a chance to prove myself my expectations pulling me away.
.
.
.
No support no relatives no
family
, friends, money to
buy
medication no foods to eat
sometimes
,
but
still
hoping for better days to
come
. I'm learning to be happy without depending on anyone. I
don't
know where
life
takes me
slowly
but
surely
I'll
make
my way back to myself
soon
and I believe that'll be the biggest karma myself.
.
.
I
'm sharing my
problems
experience challenges with you guys
because
it
makes
me feel better and relief.
I
want to apologize for any mistakes I've done above along with this text
because
Idk
the way to write a confession.
.
.
So
sorry if I've written anything
wrong
.
.
.
#
Tqforreading
#
godbless
#
hopetocuremydisease
#
wanttofullfillmydreams
#
workhard
#
livelongandstaypositive
#
achieveyourgoal❤