life changes in just a year so uch give an example for that

Maybe it was the most difficult and tiresome time in my life. Time passed so rapidly and I could not understand when I was going to go to university. Turns out, time passes so quickly. I was thinking about what ı should study in university since ı was in elementary school, furthermore; where ı should live, what kind of lifestyle ı want to live. The time that ı have to decide what ı want to study had come. I tried so many things in my life such as dance, sports, music, etc. however; It was something like that I was losing myself while drawing and designing something. It was then that I realized that I should have studied Fashion Design. The last six months went preparing my portfolio and searching the universities in Italy. İn one hand ı was going to school, on the other hand, ı was going drawing course for four times a week. Preparing a portfolio and doing other things together was such a weary thing but indeed ı had to do it. At the same time ı was going to a dance course and also, ı was trying to spare time for my family and friends. There was a lot more to do and to prepare, while I was thinking about how these days will pass, however; time had come finally. I had prepared my portfolio and took the TOEFL test, surely a lot of things were going well. I had made the decision to university, it was an art university in Venice, Italy. I guess for the first time, things are shaping superb in my life. I was happy like children. As time passed, I sent my portfolio and other documents after I finished my preparation, like January. But a part of me was very sure that I would win. As I thought so, I started celebrations and vacation plans. The plan in my mind was to go on vacation in the summer, spend time with my friends and family, and go to Italy in September. About three weeks later I found out that I was accepted and they called me for an interview, it was done online, but I was still a little stressed. Really, thanks to my art teacher, the answers I gave had a great influence on them. I would always be grateful to her for what she taught me. A week later I found out that I won and they even gave me a scholarship. Everything was going so well as it should be that we celebrated my university acceptance with my family and friends. But of course, there was plenty of stuff to get done yet. There were more things to be prepared, to be taken. Then the next occupation was about arranging where I would stay in. I reckon I would stay in the house we shared with a few roommates. While I was dealing with these situations, my friends were still studying for the university entrance exam. On the one hand, I was doing my business and on the other hand, I intend to have fun and travel. I decided to attend the dance classes more, I was going to concerts and parties, moreover; ı was very happy that my efforts were not wasted, and in fact that I got a better result than I expected. Until a virus emerges that affects and stops all life. The pandemic had affected the whole world, furthermore; this virus was deadly and directly affecting the lungs and many people died because they could not breathe. It was so horrendous. . . we couldn't understand what was happening. People were dying, a lot of new cases emerged every day. Roads were closing, countries were closing their verges, to put it simply, everywhere was closing one by one. On the other hand, the government took lots of restrictions, for instance; we suddenly found ourselves unable to go out. No one could comprehend what was happening. It was as if darkness had fallen on the world, everywhere was empty, no one was going out and we had to stay in our homes for a long time. We had a very troublesome time, as a matter of fact that, I was very psychologically affected by this situation and did not know how to deal with it. But ı hope and pray for that would end soon. But it was not like that. When we came to august, I realized that I would not be able to go to Italy. We had discussed this issue a lot with my family, but of course, I could not go in any way. I was devastated and what is worse, I felt like my whole life was darkening. For some reason, I was having a hard time coping with this cause ı was the only one who can not go to university. Ceren won Boğaziçi, Deren İTÜ, and İlayda won Mimar Sinan University, the fact is, all of my friends have plans and ı was the only one who can not go to university. It was so wicked that I would have to spend another year here while everyone will meeting new people or will come back to school again, at the same time, ı had no clue what to do. I was in a very messed-up situation, insomuch that, I didn't want to talk to people, I couldn't go out anyway. But after things settled down for a while, Ceren came to us and I was eating in my room with my pajamas while ı was watching TV series. When she came, we talked for hours and spent time together. Again, I remembered what it was like to talk to someone, to have fun, and that was really good for me. She asked why I was like this, of course, she knew, but I knew she was asking to find out how I felt. After I expressed the things I felt and thought, she told me that everything is good and happens for a reason and everyone is going through the same things right now, maybe this year could be the best of my life, no matter how bad it looks. I was very impressed when she said that I made a lot of sacrifices to go to Italy, that I was very tired, that I could not do a lot of things I wanted while ı was preparing my portfolio. Yet more, she thought that maybe it was the right time to do the things ı couldn't. Perhaps this year was a gift given to us, albeit badly. I came to myself with her consideration, thereafter, I realized that ı have such good friends in my life. We love each other and, we are here for each other through thick and thin. That night I sat down and wrote down all the things I wanted to do but couldn't do. Enthusiastically, I started doing them one by one, of course, in order. As if that night was a turning point for me. I re-enrolled in the dance that I quit for almost third time. I started to do sports. I was going to a drawing class once in a while. I started doing gymnastics again and playing the violin, even more; ı was meeting with friends that I had not met for a long time. I was spending more time with Ceren, Deren, "İlayda" and my other close friends. I was officially recovering myself. While there were so many things in my life that I wanted to do but could not do, I started to turn all the negativities that existed in this one year to my own benefit, even if the pandemic was still going on. I was spending more time with my friends, family, and mostly myself. Nevertheless, I had a really good year. About a year after all these incidents, I finally went to Italy. To be honest, everything was like a dream, but now it's also complete. I truly found myself here. The school was really challenging us. There were so many drawings, so many projects, so many things to do. But Venice was worth everything. I've met some very nice people, I guess I wouldn't have believed my life would have been so goluptious even if someone had told me before. I was happy here right now, having fun, traveling, learning. . . Looking back, how much I beat myself up in those days. How unnecessary it was. Consequently, I was not the only one who experienced those negativities. I realize that that year was a turning point for me. I was closing that year with the best version I could be. Maybe it was happening all to the good. İt's just as well that, things happened that way, forwhy it was one of the most fabulous and significant years of my life, no matter how bad it was. I spent time with my family, got closer to my friends. I once again realized the importance of the concept of family and friends. Maybe I am not going to be able to see my family and friends for a long time after I left, or maybe we would all be dispersed with our friends to different places. For me, what is important is to collect memories. I have a lot of memories to tell when I get old, I am glad that I lived fully, hereupon; I am collecting more and more new memories from now on. I have met a lot of new people. I did everything that I thought ı could not. İn fact, I did my best to achieve my goals so far. I always thank myself for what I have contributed to myself. That year has taught me so many things… In short, I look at life more positively now, I give myself the chance to do whatever I want. I learned to love myself. Afterward loving and accepting myself, it turns out that life was quite better and easier. I develop myself more, I learn new things, I try, first and foremost, most of all I try to stay happy and find happiness, no matter how bad the situation is. Sometimes I try to find positivity out of it even though I feel negativity. Maybe who knows, everything happens for a reason, and maybe even those negativities are for just us.